Ironic, isn't it? That my blog is born, yet the first title is "Death"?
Well, i just posted a bulletin on my Friendster account (that's http://profiles.friendster.com/krizfreeze to you). some of the questions concerned death; and my friend, vicky, suggested: since i write "essays" to answer each question, might as well i satrt up a blog. so there was a problem of what topic should i cover for the first topic. Naturally, death came to mind... its a nice contrast, as i've mentioned in the above...
so, these are the among the questions, and the "extended versions" of my answers...
What do you regret more - things you'vedone or things you have't done?
Things that i haven't done... It is a great loss to have not done things that i've always wanted to do, or dreamed of doing. even if they were "spur-of-the-moment" stuff, or things that i wanted to do but were not that important... it is just a waste. A waste.
Would you rather murder or be murdered?
If i had to choose, i would murder. i can't imagine myself commiting homocide, but that case is even stronger for the latter- being murdered... i guess i love myself too much! hahaha!
i'd rather experience watching someone die in my hands than experience death myself... Cruel. but if u try to see it from a different perspective, it's quite true. ever watched the "saw" movies? if you have, u'll see what i mean.
Would you rather be skinned alive orburned?
I'd rather be burned... it's a much shorter process, and i think the time for my body to get into shock might be faster too. [getting all medical here... btw, i am NOT a medical student. never intended to be one.] so all in all, it's a less painful death.
If cremated - where do you want youashed spread?
The sea. i can't quite explain why. perhaps being born a hindu, it is etched in my mind that once i die, i would be cremated, and my ashes would be released in the sea...
but i want my ashes to be spread into the sea... i guess it's sort of a "release" - that my body would finally be disintergrating, that my soul would be completely released into the vast universe, as my body spreads out into the ocean...
Considering all circumstances unknown -when do you wish to die?
i read my friend's answer: "when i'm old and sick" and was taken aback. many young people do have that answer, but i have one that is... well...
i don't have a certain number in my mind about when i want to die[no point trying to estimate something you can never, ever accurately predict], but i want to go away healthy-and about 80%, if not 100% satisfied with my life. why suffer sickness then die? why not before? why be sad/frustrated with illnesses then die, when i can sing with joy minutes before my last breath? of course, the best time to go is during my sleep... painless and peaceful..
The one you love most is dying...what isthe last thing you say to them?
i dont quite know... i read the question without anyone in mind, and i felt indifferent. after that i imagined the one i loved the most dying... and i felt my heart growing heavy. what would i say? it would ache way too much to say what i really want the last thing to be said; thati love them, or to say goodbye, or anything... you know; the heavy feeling... "sebak"...
but then i pictured a different scenario, where i am chatting-like me and that person always do-about anything and everything... and felt somewhat different... i had this happy feeling... not happy that the person will die, of course! but happy, because i am with them in their last moments together, laughing about the silly stuff in the past, giggling about the people passing by, admiring the sights around... well, that was different... and comforting...
If you knew it was your last day - whatwould you do?
somehow, i pictured myself being quiet. with lots of things running through my mind... yet, i am at peace. not anxious, not frustrated. nothing like that. just at peace. but lots of thoughts in my mind. i'd probably be alone. not because it is as it is, but because i'd want to be alone. at a quiet park, on a breezy evening. inhaling the fresh air, enjoying the sights and sounds of flora and fauna. just sitting at the park bench, and falling asleep...and going...
i dont know why, in that "picture" that came to my mind, there were no humans around me... just nature... why werent my loved ones around? i dont know... i dont know... but it was very serene...
well, that was all the questions about or related to death... the latter ones had the most emotional feelings.. but now, at this point of my life i just want to live each day as it comes. at this point of my life, i am 95% happy with my life, when the people around me are bogged down by one thing or another..
And i thank God everyday for that.
Well, i just posted a bulletin on my Friendster account (that's http://profiles.friendster.com/krizfreeze to you). some of the questions concerned death; and my friend, vicky, suggested: since i write "essays" to answer each question, might as well i satrt up a blog. so there was a problem of what topic should i cover for the first topic. Naturally, death came to mind... its a nice contrast, as i've mentioned in the above...
so, these are the among the questions, and the "extended versions" of my answers...
What do you regret more - things you'vedone or things you have't done?
Things that i haven't done... It is a great loss to have not done things that i've always wanted to do, or dreamed of doing. even if they were "spur-of-the-moment" stuff, or things that i wanted to do but were not that important... it is just a waste. A waste.
Would you rather murder or be murdered?
If i had to choose, i would murder. i can't imagine myself commiting homocide, but that case is even stronger for the latter- being murdered... i guess i love myself too much! hahaha!
i'd rather experience watching someone die in my hands than experience death myself... Cruel. but if u try to see it from a different perspective, it's quite true. ever watched the "saw" movies? if you have, u'll see what i mean.
Would you rather be skinned alive orburned?
I'd rather be burned... it's a much shorter process, and i think the time for my body to get into shock might be faster too. [getting all medical here... btw, i am NOT a medical student. never intended to be one.] so all in all, it's a less painful death.
If cremated - where do you want youashed spread?
The sea. i can't quite explain why. perhaps being born a hindu, it is etched in my mind that once i die, i would be cremated, and my ashes would be released in the sea...
but i want my ashes to be spread into the sea... i guess it's sort of a "release" - that my body would finally be disintergrating, that my soul would be completely released into the vast universe, as my body spreads out into the ocean...
Considering all circumstances unknown -when do you wish to die?
i read my friend's answer: "when i'm old and sick" and was taken aback. many young people do have that answer, but i have one that is... well...
i don't have a certain number in my mind about when i want to die[no point trying to estimate something you can never, ever accurately predict], but i want to go away healthy-and about 80%, if not 100% satisfied with my life. why suffer sickness then die? why not before? why be sad/frustrated with illnesses then die, when i can sing with joy minutes before my last breath? of course, the best time to go is during my sleep... painless and peaceful..
The one you love most is dying...what isthe last thing you say to them?
i dont quite know... i read the question without anyone in mind, and i felt indifferent. after that i imagined the one i loved the most dying... and i felt my heart growing heavy. what would i say? it would ache way too much to say what i really want the last thing to be said; thati love them, or to say goodbye, or anything... you know; the heavy feeling... "sebak"...
but then i pictured a different scenario, where i am chatting-like me and that person always do-about anything and everything... and felt somewhat different... i had this happy feeling... not happy that the person will die, of course! but happy, because i am with them in their last moments together, laughing about the silly stuff in the past, giggling about the people passing by, admiring the sights around... well, that was different... and comforting...
If you knew it was your last day - whatwould you do?
somehow, i pictured myself being quiet. with lots of things running through my mind... yet, i am at peace. not anxious, not frustrated. nothing like that. just at peace. but lots of thoughts in my mind. i'd probably be alone. not because it is as it is, but because i'd want to be alone. at a quiet park, on a breezy evening. inhaling the fresh air, enjoying the sights and sounds of flora and fauna. just sitting at the park bench, and falling asleep...and going...
i dont know why, in that "picture" that came to my mind, there were no humans around me... just nature... why werent my loved ones around? i dont know... i dont know... but it was very serene...
well, that was all the questions about or related to death... the latter ones had the most emotional feelings.. but now, at this point of my life i just want to live each day as it comes. at this point of my life, i am 95% happy with my life, when the people around me are bogged down by one thing or another..
And i thank God everyday for that.
